nomoore wrote:
I will likely still go sans diaper at home when not needed though.
I wear diapers at home primarily because it's just so frustrating to be in the bathroom that often. If I'm not diapered I spend so much of my life worrying about how full my bladder is, how full I expect it to be in 20 minutes, how soon I expect to be a convenient time to go to the bathroom.
nomoore wrote:
I've soaked my car seat before and I've had diapers leak a fair amount. But that was the closest I have come to having a publicly visible accident.
I've had the publicly visible accidents. I haven't been as brave about sharing them, but I've had them. Mostly what I was doing instead is I had my life all twisted into absolute knots trying to avoid situations where I might wet, or trying to improvise containers to pee in, or restricting liquid intake, or finding lame excuses for why I can't do this or I have to do that. Or many other things (some of them embarrassing in their own right)
I was originally trying to stop wearing diapers in 2011 because I thought it would make me look "more normal". But I don't look normal when I'm twisting my life into the kind of contortions that I need to, in order to not wear diapers, either.
What I still haven't fully figured out is the masculinity angle, the desire to look like those models in the underwear ads. For me underwear has always been "the first line of defense against my pants being visibly wet". If I'm wearing underwear I kind of expect it to be damp a lot of the time (and I appreciate the fact that it gets wet first so that my pants can stay dry longer). But... man. The idea of being able to wear underwear and have it always be dry. It's something most people take for granted and I know they probably wouldn't see it as a big thing. But it's rough sometimes.
I was going a few rounds with the masculinity thing tonight because I was looking at what I could buy as far as fixing pants/compression shorts. I couldn't find fixing pants I was happy with on the sites I was looking at, so I typed "compression shorts" into amazon, and I got hit with a bunch of visual images of men who are all better than I am at keeping their pants dry. I didn't order anything. I'd rather find fixing pants where at least I can see myself represented more in the target market.