I’ve been dealing with incontinence issues for some time now (been in diapers 24/7 for one year “plus” by now) Prior to that well, I struggled throughout the day dealing with an overly unpredictable bladder which over time worsened.
I started out with an overactive bladder meaning I was experiencing frequent sudden urges.
In the beginning I were able to make it to the toilet although sometimes my underwear was damp, but more and more often I started experiencing small accidents by which I started using toilet paper in my underwear, however over time the toilet paper didn’t do as I graduated to having full blown accidents meaning a full emptying of my bladder in my pants, needless to say it was and still is very embarrassing being a grown up and have to deal with soaked pants sometime.
I went to the doctor who sent me to an urologist which after numerous investigations couldn’t find any particular reason for my incontinence other than an overactive detrusor muscle – by then my bladder capacity was close to normal, however I have experienced that my bladder capacity has decreased especially after I started wearing genuine diapers 24/7 and the urges has also changed, so that I wet sometimes without only realizing it after.
As many others, so I have read, I tried other solutions for handling my incontinence issues, like medications, doing kegels, timed voidings etc., although I got some results from these, they also represented a lot of concern to me as they didn’t offer the solution to my problem as I hoped for. Especially the medications meant discomfort due to side effects like dry mouth, tunnel vision, headaches and so on.
After some time I decided to stop taking the medication since the effect from it didn’t decrease my frequency / urgency by much (I still had accidents and due to the medication, when I had an accident it wasn’t minor….)…Meanwhile on medication I was advised to do regular kegels and try timed voiding’s, however although they helped some, they also provided much stress and discomfort, since I’ve was constantly thinking about my bladder state not having an accident, having direct access to a vacant toilet once needed….I started wearing pads in my underwear but gradually worked my way up to ever more absorbent pads – they helped somewhat, but I made the mistake to trust them too much, and since they wasn’t meant to handle a full wetting accident, I gradually made the switch toward real diapers, in the start I only taped the lower ones as I still tried to make it to the toilet, however eventually when a toilet wasn’t readily accessible, I’ve had to use my diaper, and from these experiences I learnt, that although I dreaded diapers from the start, I started to like them, as they provided me with the security I needed, and from there, well, I’ve been more or less in diapers 24/7.
So here I am, a forty year old dad back in diapers…..do I regret being back in diapers? No! Actually they have provided me with some comfort and security together with a regained dignity, as I again without much stress can carry on living my life, actively going out and not being stuck in my house. Yes, being diapered do mean, I have to plan ahead and take my precautions, but again I regained my freedom with the help of the right kind of protection aka diapers.
However I remember when I revealed to my wife that I had this problem and even more when I told her, that I had been dealing with the issues for some time using diapers. Back then, I really feared her reaction, and her lack of acceptance of me and the choices I made. However in comparison we found some solutions to deal with it, like having a protection on our couch and extra protection in bed. Thankfully she supported me from day one and it was a great relief not having to hide the diapers anymore although I don’t flaunt them, they are still visible in our bedroom where I store them. Our son doesn’t know about he’s dad being in diapers, since I’m very discrete about them, actually no one besides my wife and doctor knows about my diapered state, I have not told anyone at my work, nor family or friends about me having issues and how I deal with them, as it’s none of their business, thereby by “nick name”.
All in all, it has been a positive thing in my life, starting to use diapers since other things didn’t work as intended, not that I "like" diapers, not at all, but they offered me security and dignity.
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