Lyle, I was on 2400mg of neurontin but my nephrologist wanted me to cut back so I cut it in half. Instead of 600mg 4x, I now only do it twice a day. I didn't notice a big difference when I cut back, but I've been experiencing more pain lately in my ankles, but mostly at night. I've gone through various pain meds but right now, I'm only on gabapentin and cymbalta. It doesn't eliminate the pain, but makes it livable. My incontinence started when I was 4 yo, but it was very infrequent. During school years, I might have an accident once or twice a year. I managed to hide it from everyone, including my parents. It wasn't until I was 30 or so that it became worse and it has been getting worse ever since. Now I have frequent bladder releases and some bowel releases that happen without any warning. I think the fact that I can be continent for periods of time makes the diagnosis hard to nail down. I've had urological tests performed when I'm not experiencing any issues and all come out normal. All the Drs. believe there is a neurological problem but they haven't found a test to prove it. Mostly they just say it is diabetic neuropathy and it ends there. I'm going back to my neurologist next month to see if there are other tests that might be done that would confirm that diagnosis. I haven't had diabetes for 50 years so I feel there must be some explanation that would explain my progressive loss of continence over the years. I am pretty sure I don't have OAB, none of the drugs helped at all. I don't think I have a neurogenic bladder because my bladder does seem to empty mostly. My belief is my sphincters (both ureteral and rectal) are failing. I don't feel anything down there so I don't know when it is time to go. But there seems to be some short circuit or something that changes from time to time. Sometimes I get a slight "feeling" that something needs to happen very soon. If I'm near a bathroom, I'm ok, if not I leak. That is on good days. Other times, it just comes out and hopefully, I'm wearing a diaper or there will be a puddle. It is definitely getting worse. In years past, I rarely leaked. Now I'm having a great day if I stay dry all day long. I don't know why I'm having such difficulty deciding what to do. Do I just give up and wear diapers all the time and just let it happen? To me that feels like a loser. I don't like having big accidents especially in public, but I really like the time I don't wear diapers. You all have to agree that diapers are a big inconvenience, except cleaning up after an accident is much worse. That is my dilemma. Give up or keep seeking dry days? Has anyone else faced this question? Maybe most just became incontinent and there was no choice. That hasn't been my situation, but it is getting to the point where I can't keep control.
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