It sounds to me a bit like the autism/ADHD is taking over and you are spinning this around-and-around in your head. Try to get something else to focus on and you might be able to get over some of it.
I'm just enough down the trail of Asbergers to recognize it, but I had a couple friends in (engineering graduate school) who had those sort of symptoms much worse than me; one focused on it with the same level of attention into collecting things. First records, than telephones.
I know it sounds totally different, but it is not. Obsession with a topic and then "spinning" on it until it took over his whole life and he couldn't function.
It's a very similar behaviour. Seriously, the trick for him was to shake up his environment and force him to look at something else.
I wish I could say something more helpful.
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