I’m just having one of those “days“. I really thought “*
those days*” of feeling “depressed“ about incontinence were behind me. I was wrong.
I’ve been poked, prodded, and pierced in ways that I wouldn’t want on anybody. I’ve leaked, stained, smelled, and been only in diapers and seen by many in just that state. I’ve experienced “shame“ to the degree that it is “laughable“ after the fact but not during (got lots of funny stories for another day; probably a new topic to start?). So I have all this experience. I'm a "pro". I can be *just in a diaper* and I'm "ok". No big deal for me, right?!?
Yet ... someone sent me a message today that set me off. It was just part of a normal conversation. They weren’t being nasty or probing. They were just asking questions. Totally innocent. Nothing wrong with that, right? … Well … It got me. And it got me hard.
And now I feel like I’m back at square one. Like when I first realized I am *totally* incontinent. All the feelings; questions; etc. Oh my gosh! I don’t even know how to process what I am feeling right now.
So, my dear brethren. … I’m using you as my sounding board. A place to vent .. I just feel like I needed to unload; and you guys/gals are my target. Sorry for unburdening on you all. But thank you for listening.