Ellyn wrote:
Well, If I have “helped” pave the way to acceptance of the 33MM of us, then I guess that’s the only positive that came out of that horrible experience for me.
The reality of it is that most likely knew that I was incontinent to some degree anyway as I’ve been incontinent my whole life. What they probably didn’t know was the extent that I’ve progressed to. I personally know a large number of women (10 or more) that experience leakage, most of them “stress” incontinent, requiring a pad or as much as absorbent underwear (Tena, Depends, Always, and the like). Now they all likely realize that I’m full on diapers.
Again though it’s not so much knowing that they all know about my “medical issue”, that they probably knew anyway, but more the memories that the incident stirred up. My childhood SUCKED! Sorry. I love my mom but the way she got me up and hauled me off was SO reminiscent of the past. The look in her face wasn’t that of concern or sympathy but more of disappointment. Yes, I’ve talked with professionals about this before... Yes, I love my mom and myself.... Yes, I forgave my father... This is just one of those pieces of baggage I (like all of us) carry around.
When I returned to the living room, I got to witness the guys putting the sectional back together after cleaning -my pee-! It’s not like I could have simply left. No, I was there for two more days to have to deal with the fallout.
I’m SO GLAD it’s over!!
So sorry you have to deal with this @Ellyn. Though it is embarrassing to get the texts, emails, and phone calls, it sounds like your family is at least trying to understand and make sure you are OK, but I can definitely understand wishing they would just drop it and not bring it up. Hang in there! You are among friends here. Wishing you an exceptional 2020!