I have to admit, i've gotten worse to the point that i can't really control my bowels either, and i'm scared to go to the doctor really really scared. I know i need to, but what if they say it's all in my head that if i really tried i could make it to the toilet, I can't wear regular underwear anymore, i tried this morning i pooped and peed myself and it came out the leg holes.its really bad and i feel demoralized and i just want to lie in bed and feel sorry for myself, but i can't. there's a job to be got, doctors to be seen, I'm sorry i know most of you deal with this on a daily basis, and i have no right to feel sorry for myself, but it still sucks no matter what way you dice it.
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