Hey all,
I still have the occasioal debate with myself whether to give the biofeedback and pt a second try to see how long I can get dry, or if i get dry.. and then I always come back to the same conclusion..no, I don't think I could commit reliably to doing hte excercises every day, and that is really what it would take to be effective in the long term. It's not that i would be too busy to do them, becuause i would have ample time, it's that after 31 years..will be 32 this coming friday
...I should know myself by now. I make commitments to clean up, brush my teeth, keep my apartment clean..and I do ok for a while, but then i relapse. I'm always distracted by something.. ususally its my computer.. but sometimes it's my TV or its a book.. or something I get distracted with..and things go undone. I have tried to break that habit.. but after 31 years its still there. Which is why I say it very well may be not realistic for me to keep up wtih the excercises..
But, heres the thing about treatments.. yes, if you do X Y and Z, you might be dry..but, that doesn;t mean your NOT incontinent, it jsut means you found another way to deal with it and manage it other than diapers. Because the fact is, unless the underlying cause is temporary, such as weak muscles.. which actually may not be temporary, such as in the case of post childbirth incontienence (I have heard cases where it was permanent), the treatment has to be kept up with life long.. but you never really go back to being normal.. So in that case, it seems clear to me that doing X Y and Z is only worth it if it doesnt cause more mental stress and angst than just using diapers. And for me right now, that's not the case. I discovered today that if i really concentrate and squeeze the muscles.. i can stop the flow.. but it requires me thinking about my bladder.. and concsiously remembering what to do. Same thing with the excercises.. i have to conciously stop what im doing to accomodate my bladder. No matter how you slice it, whether or not your pants are dry, whether or not you wear a diaper, your bladder doesn't accomodate you, you accomodate IT!! Well, ladies and gentlemen, I for one refuse to live my life dictated by what my bladder wants. Id rather just pad up with Abena, and not have any worries at all other than worriying whether its going to leak or not.. which it usually doesnt. These days, when im working at walmart or substiut teaching...which by the way, tonight is my last night for FOREVER!..i just pad up and let it go..and dont even worry about peeing in the toilet. Ever since i decided to do that, the work night has become MUCH less stressful.
Peace out!