Hey all,
I have the pre-op appointment for my lithotripsy tomorrow. While not necessarily strictly related to my incontienence, my kidney stones have been giving me grief lately, and it will be a relief to have them out of there, and I have resolved to drink as much water as a I can once they are removed in order to avoid getting them again if I can. No more dehydration for me. I think what happened is several years ago back when I was a kid even I developed a habit of not drinking enough water to avoid having accidents or feeling like i had to go all the time.. I think I reached a point where if drank water, I felt like I had to pee a lot. Well, since now I have accepted that I am incontient, and will be so for the foreseeable future, and wearing diapers all the time anyway.. It really doesn't matter at all anymore how much I drink, since if I pee more.. I will have the diapers to absorb it. I would just have to make sure that I have enough absorbency.. maybe sometimes opting for ConfiDry. My urologist agreed; she said shed rather have me wetting more than not drinking water and forming stones. She said she didn't want to address the incontiennce until I had my stones taken out, because she suspects that the stones are aggravating, if not causing outright the incontience. Frankly, at this point, I could care less if they address the incontinence itself; I'm content to live diapered. I have tried the meds, I have tried the exercises. The excercises did help, but if my control is dependent on me remembering to do something every day without fail, I don't think that will work. I have ADHD and PDD-NOS, so I'm easily distractable, and thus very scatterbrained. I've tried making lists and reminders.. follow through is lacking on my part. Plus there is the fact that for the past 4 years and for a few months, I was dry without doing hte excercies every day. And I didn't really follow a special diet. So, really, even if i did every treatment for biofeedback and pelvic exercise again, there's still no guarantee id be wearing underewear again forever anyway.
I don't care if I wear diapers for the rest of my life..however, I do want to be pain free and have functioning kidneys.
Peace out! Rob
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