batman381327 wrote:
I feel guilty when I start to think about it
Hi batman, thanks for the encouragement. As for your feeling guilty, I have these feelings too. We are supposed to be strong, mentally and physically. I feel like I should be better than this, and so I feel guilty, and I think about all those who experienced things much worse than I, etc. Maybe this is a common theme for us all?
I was bullied and harassed by a couple of NCOs while we were deployed. It messed up my world. Reality became really abstract for me when I was over there. It was like everything was a dream and whatever happened in the real world didn't really matter. And yeah, as soon as I brought up what was going on regarding the harrassment, I became the issue for not being able to deal with it or suck it up and keep going. I did have some good NCOs, tho. That helped.
I think group therapy would be a good thing. Maybe I will give it a go.