Papa wrote:
In another thread it was asked if being able to walk around ones house in just a diaper and tee shirt was a step towards accepting incontinence and wearing diapers. I understand what he was asking and agreed with his thoughts. Then i remembered a day last summer when I got up as usual and went down and put on the coffee wearing just my night diapers and a light tee shirt.
It was liberating and my confidence grew. Before diapers i would come down in just my boxers or boxers and a tee also. I wanted to feel "normal" again after years of not feeling that way. I made the coffee and sat down to read the paper which had been delivered earlier. After reading the paper i opened up my laptop and checked the weather (Dry and hot for the day.) Next it was the news and then e-mail. Over two hours had passed as well as half the pot of coffee. I fixed the third cup and went out on the back porch (I can walk all around the outside of my house and could never be seen by neighbors) so it is private.
More and more I kept telling my self diapers are just my new underwear. I would answer the door easily in a tee and boxers, why do I fear that now? I knew the reason but was angry at it. My confidence and courage grew. By then i needed my diapers changed and went up and brushed my teeth and shaved. Next i showered and put on dry diapers and clean plastic pants (I prefer cloth diapers.) I came back down in just the diapers and carried a tee it case it was needed. I saw the mail that had been piling up and went through it on the back deck in a comfortable chair. I went to my office and paid the bills and readied them for mailing. I was growing more and more bold. "To hell with what others think! This is what I have to deal with now and they can all just accept it!)
I had finally found that confidence i had lost long ago. Then... (Ding, Dong) the door bell rang. Panic raced through me and i ran for cover - in my own house - found a robe and answered the door. A delivery. I sat down and my body was shaking, my mind racing. The confidence i realized was just an act of defiance and bravado that was shattered by... a door bell. I fought in Vietnam and saw and experienced things no one should. I was wounded twice, i never wavered in battle. But a door bell....
Papa
I couldn't have answered the door just in my nappy either. I have done though on several occasions in a nappy anddressing gown. When I reaced the stage where I neded to wear all the time I was very self concious about being noticed. Now I hardly evr think about it providing my nappy is covered. My wife always tells me no one can tell but I know if you looked hard enough it would be obvious but I'm incontinent so have no choice. Well I could wear a bag but I'd rather wear a nappy to be honest.